note to self – do not use black
only dark brown
or dark green
or dark red
but not black
the hard outline is not what I want
maybe my art is about boundaries.
on a purely formal level
i don’t want there to be boundaries, i want everything to melt into each other
like pools of fat
like pats of butter in a frying pan
so my work is about
having less boundaries?
smudgey smudge smudge smudge
(after we spoke on the phone for four hours)
I dreamt that I was curled on a man’s lap
and I felt safe as he stroked my hair
he was big and fatherly and his hands were like paws
the man was sort of ***** but also sort of Spencer Matthews from made in chelsea
he told me I needed to get my left front tooth fixed
and that would make me look better,
would make me feel better